A New Me

I'm now 9 days post op from my breast reduction surgery. This picture is of a bra I wore before I had my surgery. 38DD I'm now a 38 C and I'm in heaven. It's funny how women pay thousands of dollars for breasts like I had. And here I am wanting to get rid of them. I can't say how happy I am to not have to be carrying that extra bulk around on my chest.

On Monday, 3 days after surgery I had all my drains and my pain pump pulled out. I have to admit that was such a relief to have them gone. I'm still draining a small amount but I think it's just where my sutures are.

Last night was the first night I've slept in our bed. I've been sleeping in our recliner because I was much more comfortable there. But I slept good last night so I guess I'll be fine in bed now. Each day I have to wear a sports bra to help shape my breasts to how they should form. They're so much more comfortable than the huge bras I used to have. I can't wear anything with an underwire on it and I doubt I'll ever have to again since I'm nice and perky. Very firm. I look so much better in my clothes.

During my recovery the past few days my breasts have felt like they did when I was nursing my babies. Like when your milk is coming in or when you were engorged. Very full, and expecting milk to express at any time. That's the only way I can describe it. Today has been a better day with less pain and fullness. I know each day is getting better and better. I go back to see the doctor in 1.5 weeks. I'm off work until Feb. 19th YEAH!! I'm really loving being off and having more time with my sweetheart. We've been on rides together and watched TV together. He's helped me so much. I don't know what I would have done without him.

I wish I dared put before and after pictures on my blog but I don't think it's a great idea. But all I can say is how happy I am that I've done it.

Happy Birthday Troy # 29

Happy 29th Birthday to my son Troy. He'll always be my baby since he's the youngest of my 3 children. Troy has always been the adventurous one. He's grown up playing sports, hunting and fishing and doing things growing up that I had no idea he had ever done. He's given us a run for our money but is an awesome son. He's a great husband and father too. I remember the day he was born 29 yrs. ago. He was a chubby 8 lbs. 2 0z. and was born the day after his big brothers birthday, 5 years apart. Troy still loves playing ball with his friends and loves camping, hunting and fishing. He is selling alarms again and is heading to Alabama in a couple of weeks. He's a big help to his dad when he needs him and I know how much Roger appreciates it. I pray God will watch over him this year and keep him safe and healthy. I love you Troy Clinton! Happy 29th birthday. Enjoy the 20's while you can.Evidence of Troys love for hunting
Troy floating down the river at Island Park. I think he thinks he has a 6-pack tummy. ha ha
Mmmm yummy smores up camping.
Troy's funny personality.
Troy with his family on his birthday
We got him 2 new pair of gym shoes and a full face mask and hat.
Troy with his mommy and daddy.

Jared's 34th Birthday

On the eve of Jared's 34th birthday I got teary eyed thinking about when he was born. I was thinking about me being an 18 year old girl who thought I knew everything. What I did know was that I was so excited to have my first child. When Jared was born doctors didn't do ultrasounds to tell you the sex of your baby before it was born. It was just a surprise when the baby arrived. We were so excited to see him and he looked so much like Roger. He really was a "Pyne" He weighed 7 lbs. even. From the moment he was born he never gave us a bit of trouble. (except when he told his first grade teacher he didn't have to stay all day at school. He wanted it to be like kindergarten and be able to go home half a day. The teacher took him to the principals office to talk to him but the principle got a phone call and Jared snuck home) Growing up Jared was always a hard worker. He had many friends and loved to play all sports. Soccer, flag football, baseball and Jr. Jazz. He was a great swimmer too. Today, Jared is still a hard worker, working two jobs, he loves to pheasant hunt, deer and elk hunt too. He loves to camp and fish. But most of all he loves his family. He's such a wonderful son, daddy, husband and brother. I love him so much and I'm so proud of him. I pray that God will allow him to continue to be healthy and happy and be successful in all he does.

Happy 34th birthday Jared!!
Temple Square 2012 with Easton on his shoulders. Such a fun night!
Jared showing off his 6 pack at Bear Lake.

Jared with Rog and I on his birthday.
Easton's helping his daddy open his presents up.

Happy 8th Birthday Dax

Jan. 22 was Daxtons 8th birthday. He has been such a joy in our lives from the day he was born. Daxton is my snuggle bunny. Even a couple of weeks ago he had to sleep between grandpa and grandma. He loves to lay in bed and giggle and talk and talk. I finally have to tell him it's time to go to sleep now. Daxton always has something to say about everything. He can carry on quite the conversation and has a great imagination. I'm so proud of him and for his ability to make friends, do well in school and help take care of his sisters. He is a really good skater, he's taking Karate and is loving it. He loves sports and it's so fun for us to go watch him. It will be such a fun day when he's baptized. Here's Daxton on Christmas
Daxton went to Bear Lake with us this past summer and loved the water and camping.
Daxton loves to get on our computer and do the IPhoto program where you can make funny images. He keeps grandma laughing and laughing.

My Breast Reduction Surgery

Well, it's the day before my breast reduction surgery. I'm on edge about it, just so nervous.
I went to see Dr. Jon Bishop about 4 weeks ago to see if he thought I would qualify for the surgery and have my insurance pay for it. He did measurements and pictures and sent them to my insurance company. That same day I got an approval so here I am now, the day before the big day.
I went on YOUTUBE one day to see what the procedure was like and I came upon a nasty looking video of one. I was so surprised at what they do. I think that's why I'm so nervous about it. They literally fillet your breasts open and cut out breast tissue. My surgery will be approximately 3 hours and I'll be staying overnight in the hospital. I'll have drains coming out of each breast and I'll have a pain pump for several days. I won't be able to lift anything more than 5 lbs. for 6 weeks, I can't lift my arms up etc. So the recovery is quite hard but I'm ready to get this over with and start the recovery process.
I've put on a lot of weight the past 2 years and so I've gained a lot of it in my breasts. I haven't lost the weight and not sure when I will but I'm so tired of seeing pictures of myself. The first thing you see are my breasts and I hate it.
It's funny, when I tell someone I'm having a reduction done the firs thing women say is "can you share with me?" I wish I could darn it. Here I am getting rid of my DD's and women are paying to have them.
I'll be going from a DD to a C and I know I'll be so much happier. So here's to a new me in a new year. I'm praying it all goes well and that I'll be so happy after.

Rog

I often wonder about the future and what it holds for my sweet husband. Day in and day out he lives with chronic pain. I see him hurting and it breaks my heart. I know we're both so disappointed that his back surgery has not been successful. I see him deal with his diabetes 24 hours a day and it's a constant fight to keep his blood sugars in line. He is doing everything in his power to stay healthy. He exercises 5 days a week to keep his heart healthy too.
I know what diabetes can do to you and the affects it has on your body. The toll it takes is horrendous. I'm so proud of him for doing his best even though he is so tired of it. His fingers are so calloused from checking his blood sugar for 45 years. He's beginning to have neuropathy in his feet too. It scares me and I know it scares him too to wonder what the future will be. I can't imagine my life without him. He's my rock, my hero and I love falling asleep at night holding his hand.
I pray each night and day that God will help him make it through another day without pain. I wish I could take it all away and suffer for him. I'm so glad I have an opportunity to show him my love and to support him in his life. And I pray we'll have many more years together to do some things we've always dreamed of doing.
I love you honey

Happy 2012 New Years Day

This is the craziest family!! I said let's all pull a funny face and everybody reacted. How how I love these beautiful people. Even Mia the dog got into it.
Then there's this beautiful family. Even though we aren't all decked out in nice clothes, we're just dressed in our comfy ones, we are beautiful. Each one of us. I can't even begin to imagine not having one of them not be in my life. Each one has a very important part in my life. We have created many fun memories over the years. We've been through many, many challenges together and we support each other in anyway we can. I'm so grateful Heavenly Father allowed me to be their wife, mom, mother- inlaw and grandma.

Today I had all of my kids and grand kids over for eggnog pancakes, grandpa's specialty scrambled eggs and bacon. I've tried to do this the past 2 years and it's now a tradition. It was nice to get together and some of us played games while others visited and watched football.

This new year I've set a couple of resolutions. I seem to do it every year and somehow forget about them. But I really want to keep these ones because they are of importance to me enough to pray about them in hopes of receiving my Father in Heavens help. But I would love to find ways that I can be of more service to others. I want to use more of my time helping someone in need. I don't want to just talk about it anymore. I want to actually do something about it. I also want to lose 30 lbs. I also talk a lot about that one too but I really need to. I've let myself get so big and I'm so down about it. I hope and pray I can have the will power I need to accomplish this goal.

Christmas 2011

Merry Christmas to our doggies. Izzy and Mac got some balls and dog treats in their stocking and they can smell them so they're attacking Rog.Here are some fun pictures of Christmas morning. Oh how I love seeing all the wrapping paper strewn all around the room and seeing the excitement as my kids and grand kids open their presents.


Presley got a little doll house

We gave Dax a ball for his new rats he got
We got Brayden a Drew Breeze shirt. He's into the New Orleans Saints football team.
Shana, Jake and their sweet family.
Makinley dressed up
Kristi in her new jammies that Jared got her and we got Gentry a new dress with a dress for her dolly to match
We got to watch Troy and his family open their presents
Jared got a new hat!
I love this picture. And I love Jared's hair on Christmas morning.
Colby was so excited that Santa came to his house.
We got Kori a waffle iron and Colby some airplanes
We got them a new suitcase.