I've really been feeling melancholy and trying to get the Christmas spirit and those good feelings we should have at this time of year. A few weeks ago I had begun praying to my Father In Heaven to be able to have my mom and dad close by me at this time. I want so much to feel them in all that I do, everywhere I go, things I see, parties I attend etc. One night I had a horrible dream about mom and it had sickened me quite bad. It's not something I want to remember so I won't go into it. But I was devastated that I would have that kind of a dream when I had been praying and asking for a comforting feeling.
That was 2 or 3 weeks ago but I had an experience the other day that I feel made up for my bad dream. It wasn't anything spectacular but I felt such a comforting feeling after I witnessed what I did. I was in the parking lot at Kohls, trying to find a parking spot and I see a couple of young women holding onto an elderly lady. Helping her walk and and treating her ever so gently. The elderly lady was beautiful but frail, she had gorgeous gray hair like I picture my mom would have had now. I was overcome with emotion as I witnessed that because I felt like that could have and should have been me and my beautiful mom. And at the same time I received a confirmation that mom was with me. That I was given that experience to know all is well and that she's with me in spirit. Simple but true. I know it was a sign that I had been wanting because I've thought of it over and over and I have such a good feeling now. I wanted to stop them right there in the road and thank them for being there right at that moment. It made me feel so good. I feel her love, her spirit. I see her making her Christmas cookies, candy and buying her gifts. I see her nut tree she made, I see her beautiful Christmas tree, her home always decorated so pretty, I see her making her cakes to take to her friends and ward members. Christmas was her holiday. I want so much to be like her. She was beautiful, giving, caring, sympathetic, had empathy, loving.
I'm thankful that my prayers were answered in a small, simple way.
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